I prepared for winter running….
I’m disappointed with myself. Its been about a year since I’ve started this blog and started to get serious about health. Here I am, a year later, still hovering at around 197lbs. Nothing….wow. I have had some small successes, like building up my running stamina and obtaining the skill of getting over the first few minutes of working out, but that’s it. I’m so disappointed. Seriously? I’m going to say it, I thought I’d be skinny by now. Yes, I want to be healthy, but I’m not going to lie, of course I want to look good. I’m not saying that overweight people don’t look good, I just don’t have the confidence to put forth the effort to look good. Its just depressing.
In result, I will be 160lbs by my birthday (July 20). I refuse to accept anything less. Now I do not swear, but in this case typing, I will make an exception. I’m going to work my ass off. Literally and figuratively.
And yes, you may expect me to blog about it.
So I have been working out. Trying to keep with my schedule, but it’s been SOOOO hot where I live, like 95 degrees +, so it’s hard to jog outside. I’ve been trying to make it to the gym, but I don’t drive yet, so I have to find rides. Luckily I can drive in 12 days! WOOO. WORK OUT ALL OF THE TIME! Here’s my calendar to keep track of everything, the circles are completed work outs. Top is June, bottom is July!
I’m not going to be posting everyday like I was.
I will be getting on here and reblogging things and I will post when something significant happens.
I’m sad to say that I have fallen off of the health kick for this past month. HOWEVER, It is all beginning now again. I am going to start waking up and jogging every morning. I would like to run my own 5ks twice a month because I think it will help me work up since I’ve only been jogging about the same lengths recently. I need to push myself a little harder. I also want to start biking, that would be fun. I’m trying to save my joints a little. And, I want to attend some classes at my gym. Healthy eating! I’m going to try to make an all HEALTHY recipe book full of breakfast, lunch, dinner, and snack recipes/ideas. I will try them first, and if I like them I will throw them in a sheet protector and then into a binder. So, if you have any good healthy recipes, send them my way!
Some of you may think that the hardest thing is eating healthy or working out like you are supposed to. From my personal experience, it’s not. It’s difficult to go workout 4-6 days a week, but I manage it and actually enjoy it. Eating healthy is difficult for me because I love EVERYTHING that is unhealthy, especially ice cream and chocolate.
The hardest thing about trying to lose weight is this. I workout 4-6 days, and I watch what I eat. I don’t eat healthy, but I stop myself, I get smalls, and I try to incorporate every food group. The hardest thing about trying to losing weight is having 2 months pass, and not losing a pound.
My May 1st weigh in, I weighed in at 197 lbs. I was 197.4 lbs April 1st. I lost .4 pounds. I was also 197 lbs March 1st. I am extremely discouraged. Being discouraged doesn’t mean I’m going to quit. I’ve found a passion for running and working out. It’s just hard going through the rough times of the days you don’t want to workout, but you do, the times when you really want another piece of cake but you don’t, the times where you really want a double cheeseburger but get a grilled chicken wrap instead, and you don’t see any results.
That’s what is hard. That’s what makes people give up.
Please keep going. Nobody remembers people who give up, they only remember those who succeed. You can be one of those who succeeds.
Saw a friend that I havent really seen in a year, and after talking about prom and whatnot, she said
“You are really skinny now…”
and I was like
“Oh really? I’ve been running!”
and that’s it. I don’t know why she said I was really skinny, because I am definitely still over weight, but it’s nice to know that people are noticing the difference!
BUT, I just wanted to say that I’m running/walking my first 5k tomorrow! I’m going to try to jog at least 2 miles of it, and then maybe I will have to walk some, but I want to finish jogging. I have about a week until my next weigh in so… AND I was going to eat really healthy today so I’m light for the race, but I ate SO BAD today, so lets hope it doesnt effect me too bad.
Do you guys consider them different? I like to say I’m jogging, because I’m not really running, just trotting along. I seem to think of running as more of a speed thing and jogging as more of a distance thing. I don’t really know lol. What do you guys think? I’m honestly curious. ?
This girl. Until June 1st. I really need to exercise and focus on my diet. The point of this is to cut out the fatty foods and eat way more fruits and vegetables. I NEED TO FOCUS. I need to stop with these endless splurges and what not. I’m going to gain all of my weight back. So here it goes, seriousness.
I never go to school dances or anything, I am not really that girly (on the outside :) at all so I never get nice dresses or anything. However, I do want to go to prom and I would have to get a beautiful dress and what not. But, prom is at the end of May, that’s almost 2 whole months. I could be down 20lbs by then! The dress won’t fit anymore, and If I wait to get them, they will all be sold out. What should I do?
So there’s a lot going on. Today was a skip day, just kind of resting from broomball, but I wanted to post about whats going on. So my 4th weigh in is supposed to be tomorrow, but it’s not going to be. It will be the day after tomorrow because Im at my dads and I don’t have a scale here. I’m planning on making tomorrow a cleansing day, trying to stick to water and fruit all day tomorrow. Then I will weigh in on Monday. I might post a progress photo if I think I’ve shown progress enough after looking at the before and during pictures. I wanted to be in the 180’s this weigh in, but I don’t think it will happen because I have done HORRIBLE this month :(
I bet my mom that I could finish a 5k faster than her at the beginning of June. So, that’s 2 full months of training. So I will be training super hard because I need to beat her! She has already ran 3 so she knows what she is doing. I want to run one at the end of May so I know what it’s like before I officially race my mom.
Right now, I jog can jog a little more than a mile. 1.5 miles on a good day. This is what I’m going to do to get ready for my 5k.
April - The month of 2 mile jogs and doing a few 2.5 mile jogs.
May - The month of 3 mile jogs and one 3.5 jog.
Hopefully that will be enough to accomplish this. I’m going to have to eat REALLY clean, which will be the difficult part.
Skip day in the middle of the week. I just really needed this break. School has me going crazy, I’ve had these random uterus cramps for the past 3 days, and I was so exhausted. So, I chilled today and ate like the old me, which won’t happen again for a long time.
However, I wanted to state something that I have been thinking about;
Exercising, to me, is more than getting fit and beautiful. I mean, of course they are both very good motivators and are great benefits, but here is the thing. Those people that can use their legs/don’t have legs, would probably love to simply run. They would love to use their legs. Everyday, many of us take for granted the simple action of standing up. So this makes me want to run, it makes me want to use my legs. Why would I let them go to waste?
Not only do I love Shay Butler and the Butlers, but this moved me so much. It’s one of the most inspirational things I have ever seen. Need some? There is plenty to go around.
Leap day, woo! Went to school, came home and finished the Hunger Games, then I went to the gym. I’m still a little worn out from skiing yesterday, but I did .5 miles on the elliptical and jogged a mile on the treadmill. I was sweating pretty good surprisingly. Then I went to the bookstore to get Catching Fire, and then helped my mom pick out a new purse. So a pretty successful day.
What I ate today:
So I didn’t eat a lot, but I didn’t eat any fruit! Gotta work on that! MY WEIGH IN IS TOMORROW! 2 months! Jeez Loweez. I’m going to make the most of March!